Monday, 22 August 2011

My beautiful God Daughter, Connie.

Love this pic.  So sweet.

I couldn't believe it when my friends, Kelly and Darren, asked me to be the God Mother to their beautiful daughter Connie.  She is the sweetest little girl ever and I feel so honoured and privilaged that they asked me. 


And so it begins...

Kelly with Connie (fast asleep)

Darren


Love this pic - Kelly, Darren and Connie

Connie - baking

:-)

Grow Connie grow

So beautiful

Brand spanking new

Connie with her big sister Keira - Mai

Sunday, 21 August 2011

You Can Heal Your Life - Louise L Hay


This book has helped me through some pretty tough times and, although I have read it like a million times, I still carry a copy of it in my hand bag.  I refer to it every day as I continue my journey with Louise L Hay.  :-)

Monday, 25 July 2011

Paige Elsie Teresa Robertson - RIP

Sandra with Paige


Little Angels

When God calls little children to dwell with Him above
We mortals sometime question the wisdom of His love.
For no heartache compares with, the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world, seem wonderful and mild.
Perhaps God tires of calling the aged to his fold.
So He picks a rosebud before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them, and so He takes but few
To make the land of Heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult, still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows will always be "Goodbye"
So when a little child departs, we who are left behind,
Must realize God loves children
"Angels are hard to find".

Tuesday, 28 June 2011

Planted by the Angels...


My son, who is 16, finished high school recently.  It was quite an emotional time for me and my ex husband, who is also one of my closest friends, posted this on my Facebook wall:

"Just want YOU to know that I am very proud of you for everything you have done and all that you do. As I always say, you inspire me to push as hard as I can to do what I can to be there for you. Always remember that tears are to water the seeds that are planted by the angels when other things are removed and holes are created - without the tears, the new seeds would never grow. Love you lots and $50!"

I thought it was really sweet and just wanted to share it with you...

Love always,

Mandi x




Friday, 10 June 2011

Our Zimbabwe - Henry Olonga



This is a song by a Famous Zimbabwean Cricketer, Henry O longa.  I love it.. :)

Thursday, 9 June 2011

My Mom


I celebrated my birthday recently and my Mom sent me a card.  I was really touched by the words and wanted to share them with you....

All the love in the world wouldn't be enough for you,
You're just so special, so wonderful and a perfect daughter too.
And your birthday is a day to smile
and feel completely blessed,
For nothing means as much as
seeing you full of happiness.

I Can Do It - 2011


I am really hoping to go to "I Can Do It 2011" in London.  I have wanted to go for a couple of years now but haven't been able to afford it.  One of my greatest wishes is to meet my mentor - Louise L Hay.  Fingers crossed I meet her this year.  :-)

I CAN DO IT! London 2011

A Weekend Event: Friday 23rd– Sunday 25th September 2011

Featuring:
Louise Hay, Thomas Moore, Marianne Williamson, Caroline Myss, Cheryl Richardson, Gregg Braden, Bruce Lipton, Michael Neill, , Ali Campbell, Lynne McTaggart, Vianna Stibal, Karl Dawson & Sasha Allenby.

Join us for the ultimate mind body spirit event featuring 13 of the world’s foremost inspirational authors and speakers!

Heal Your Life* Revitalise your Mind, Body and Spirit* Create Happiness*

Louise Hay, founder of Hay House Publishers, and author of You Can Heal Your Life, established the first I Can Do It! event in the US five years ago as a forum for kindred spirits to gather, heal themselves and each other, and meet leading mind body spirit teachers.  I Can Do It! is the type of event that will revitalize your soul, recharge your body and bring a sparkle back into your life.  The event will be introduced by Louise Hay personally and Cheryl Richardson and Louise Hay will also give the closing keynote presentation. Inspirational lectures and workshops by bestselling authors Marianne Williamson, Caroline Myss, Gregg Braden, Bruce Lipton and others will give you the chance to work personally with mind body spirit speakers from around the world.

Join us and be inspired!

***COMPLIMENTARY FILM SCREENING***

Exclusive I Can Do It! Special Event – Film Premiere
There will be a complimentary film screening during the lunch break from 1.15pm - 2.45pm on Sunday 25th September. This will be an open screening and you are free to come and go and watch the film while eating your lunch. The film title will be revealed on the Hay House website in September. Until then it’s a surprise...

The Grand Hall,
The Grand Connnaught Rooms,
61–65 Great Queen Street,
London WC2B 5DA

Sunday, 5 June 2011

Saturday, 21 May 2011

Footprints


One night I had a dream--


I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

...Mary Stevenson

Sunday, 15 May 2011

My Apologies


My apologies for not blogging in ages.. The last couple of months have been a challenge for me but I'm back and I'm ready to rock and roll.

Love

Mandi x

Monday, 4 April 2011

It hurts..


I recently lost 3 of my friends and I am finding it really hard to deal with. 

I have been told to pick myself up and move on but it just hurts so much.  I'm extremely cautious about letting people into my life because I have been hurt badly in the past.  It takes me a while to trust people and when I do let them in it's kind of a big deal for me.  These 3 people were very special to me so I can't just move on and pretend that I don't care.

Some awful things were said to me which have left me hurt, confused and full of self doubt. Hurt because I would never dream of saying such things to anyone.  Confused because I don't even know what it is I am supposed to have said and / or done in one case.  Self doubt because I must, as was said, be a terrible person / friend.

I know that I am not perfect but I have tried my best to show my friends how much they mean to me.  I write blog posts about them, make them things, buy them little chocolates when I see them...

I am not sure what to do or how to get through this but I can feel the darkness coming and I am scared.

Monday, 28 March 2011

Everything Happens For A Reason



Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes things happen to you and, at the time, it may seem horrible, painful and unfair but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck, illness or love. Lost moments of true greatnes and sheet stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests life would be like a smoothly paved straight and flat road to no where - safe and dull but utterly pointless. The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience help create whom you are and the bad experiences should be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most important.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally not only because they love you but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything for you may never experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself for if you don't believe in yourself no one will believe in you.

Create your own life and then go out and live it.

Friday, 25 March 2011

Friendship


A friendship is like China, beautiful but rare.
A friendship can be broken, the crack will always be there.
So be careful when you utter words that can cause a friendship pain.
Because broken hearts are slow in mending, if they ever mend again.

Wednesday, 23 March 2011

Are you a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime?



People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is,
you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty;
to provide you with guidance and support;
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,
and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

— Unknown

Work, Friendships & Moving On


I'm sorry that I haven't updated my blog recently but I have needed some time to think as the last couple of weeks have been quite intense.

I used to work for a property development company but the majority of the buildings that they owned were put into administration a couple of months ago.  The Administrators allowed the company to manage the buildings whilst they were being sold which happened quite quickly.  We were then called into a meeting and told that redundancies and contract terminations were taking place throughout the company.  Of the 9 of us in the IT Department only 3 of the service desk dudes would remain.  So now I'm job hunting again which I find quite soul destroying but I have trust and faith and I know that God will help me find a job that is perfect for me. 

I have also had a few issues pertaining to some of my friendships which has made me really sad.  I have been slagged off, been completely ignored and been removed as a friend on Facebook all by different people who I thought were my friends.  The person who slagged me off has done so before.  I thought that I'd sorted things out with the friend that removed me but clearly I haven't and the friend that is ignoring me... well, I have no idea why she is ignoring me because she won't even speak to me.   I know that I am not the perfect friend but I have never intentionally set out to hurt anymore and I do try my best to show my friends how much they mean to me.  The whole thing has made me extremely sad and, after some really hurtful things that were said, I seriously started to doubt myself as a person.  Luckily my friend, Erica, put me straight and I now know that I am not a dreadful person and that it is ok to be me. 

So, what happens now?  Well, I am not sure to be honest but I do know that I am going to try and be a better friend but I also know that sometimes some people just aren't worth the time and effort and that maybe it's time to draw a line under the whole thing and move on.

Thursday, 10 March 2011

Pork Chop


I found out some really sad news last week - end and now I can't stop thinking about it.

I don't understand how this can happen to such a nice person with their whole life in front of them and I don't understand how God can allow such pain and suffering.

It's at times like this when I start to question my faith but it's also at times like this when I need to remind myself that God has a plan for each and everyone of us.  We may never know the who, why, when and where of it all but we have to trust in him.

So, although I can't say who you are or what your situation is, know that I am thinking about you and I am praying for you.
 
If you are wondering why this blog post is called, "Pork Chop" it's because... well, I can't really say but if you knew the situation you'd understand. 
 
 

Tuesday, 8 March 2011

Pot, Kettle - Black!


I think we need to be mindful of the things we say to other people weather directly or indrectly - especially when we ourselves are guilty of the very thing that we are pointing out! 

The phrase, "the pot calling the kettle black" came to mind when I read something recently! 

Something worth remembering!! 

Friday, 4 March 2011

Anger


I feel quite angry at the moment because of the way that certain people have been treating me.  I dislike being angry because I find it emotionally draining and, although I have a right to be angry, it doesn’t serve any form of meaningful purpose in my life. 
Louise Hay teaches us that everyone deals with anger at one time or another in their lives.  Anger is an honest emotion.  When it is not expressed or processed outwardly it will be processed inwardly.  Like criticism, we usually get angry about the same things over and over again.  When we are angry, and we don’t feel we have a right to express it, we swallow it down, which causes resentment, bitterness or depression. 
We have to remember that our feelings are thoughts in action.  They serve a purpose and when we let them loose from our minds and body then we allow space inside for other more positive experiences.
I learnt today that people will only treat you the way that you allow them to so I’m taking a stand - no more!  I’m a decent, honest and loving person and I expect to be treated with respect! 

Thursday, 3 March 2011

Million Citizen March


Zimbabwean police recently arrested 46 people who attended a meeting to discuss the uprisings in Egypt and Tunisia, just days after the government threatened to crack down on any dissent inspired by the North Africa street protests, report Human Rights Watch and the Media Institute for Southern Africa (MISA). Some of them have been tortured in custody.
Forty-five of the 46 activists were formally charged either with treason - which carries a penalty of life in jail or death - or with attempting to overthrow the government by unconstitutional means, punishable by up to 20 years in prison.
Following the arrests various campaigns hoping to defy Robert Mugabe’s clampdown on civic action have been launched, trying to encourage Zimbabweans to follow the lead of other African countries protesting against their dictators.
The campaigns, launched over email and through the social networking websites, Facebook and Twitter, encourage Zimbabweans to hold peaceful marches calling for Mugabe to step down.

The ‘Zimbabwe Million Citizen March’ was launched a week ago, and called for a mass protest on the 01/03/2011 under the theme ‘Power in numbers to remove dictatorship’. At the same time, the ‘Mugabe Must Go’ campaign is also calling for peaceful marches against ZANU PF, while the ‘Mugabe must go in seven days’ campaign, has given Mugabe a seven day ultimatum to step down.

 The campaigns have been inspired by the uprisings in Libya, Tunisia and Egypt, which have sparked debate across other African countries still ruled by despots. There are high hopes that the fall of the ruling family in Tunisia and that of Hosni Mubarak’s administration in Egypt, will have a domino effect elsewhere.

While these campaigns may not have worked I am totally blown away by the bravery of my fellow Zimbabweans.  Knowing that they face arrest, torture and even death, they still choose to stand up and fight for truth, justice and freedom. 

Heaven’s Grocery Store



As I was walking down
Life’s highway many years ago
I came upon a sign that read
“Heaven’s Grocery Store”

When I got a little closer
The doors swung open wide
And when I came to myself
I was standing inside.

I saw a host of Angels
They were standing everywhere
One handed me a basket and said,
“My child, shop with care”

Everything a human needed
Was in that grocery store
And what you couldn’t carry
You could come back for.

First I got some patience
Love was in the same row
Further down was understanding,
You need that everywhere you go.

I got a box of wisdom
And a bag or two of faith
And Charity of course
I’d need some of that too.

I couldn’t miss the Holy Ghost
It was all over the place
And then I chose salvation because
Salvation was free for you and me.

Then I started to the counter
To pay my grocery bill
For I thought I had everything to do the masters will.

As I went up the aisle
I saw prayer and put that in
For I knew when I stepped outside I would run into sin.

Peace and joy were plentiful
The last thing on the shelf
Song and praise were hanging near so I just helped myself.

Then I said to the Angel, “How much do I owe?”
He smiled and said, “Just take them everywhere you go”
Again I asked, “How much do I owe?”
“My child he said, God paid your bill a long time ago!”

Tuesday, 1 March 2011

5 Rules of Happiness



 Free your heart of hatred
Free your mind of worries
Live simply
Give more
Expect Less

Monday, 28 February 2011

Promise Yourself..



To be strong so that no one can disturb your peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness and prosperity with every person you meet.

To make all your friends feel as though there is something special in them.

To look on the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work for only the best and to expect only the best.

To be enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and to give every living creature you meet a smile.

To give time to the improvement of yourself and no time to criticize others.

To be to large for worry, to noble for anger, to strong for fear and to happy to permit the presence of
trouble.

Friday, 25 February 2011

It's official..


For those of you that don’t know, I studied for an Advanced Diploma in Event Management and Wedding Planning last year.  It’s something I have always been interested in and have always wanted to do but the course cost £800.00 which I just couldn’t afford.  Luckily or unluckily, however you choose to look at it, I was made redundant at the end of 2009 which made me eligible for a Government Redundancy Grant.  This is where the Government pays up to £1000.00 for you to retrain / study further.
There were times when I didn’t think I could do it – the course work was quite intense and I had to fit the studying in around my family and whilst working full time but I did it and I am really proud of myself!  I think I am living proof that if you want something bad enough you will make it happen.
I recently received my certificates so I am very pleased to announce that I am now (officially) a fully qualified Event Manager and Wedding Planner.  Mandi Prevedello Dip. EMWP – that’s me!

Don't Quit!


When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you are trudging seems uphill.
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
When you want to smile but you have to sight,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must but don’t quit!

Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
Any many failure turns about,
When he might have won if he’d stuck it out,
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow,

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint on the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems to far,
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worse that you must not quit

Thursday, 24 February 2011

Just for Today...




Just for today…
I will be as friendly as I can with the people that I work with.
I am going to treat them as if they are responsible for keeping me in my job and be grateful that they are there.

Just for today….
I won’t assume that my job is to be chief critic.
I will try to see the good in every situation and will look for something to praise in every person I see.

Just for today….
If I correct someone, I will do it with as much good humor and self-restraint as if I was the one being corrected.

Just for today….
I am not going to insist that everything I do is perfect.
I am not going to try and break any speed records.  I will do what is in front of me with confidence not painful compulsion. 

Just for today…
I will assume that I have adequate competence for my tasks. 
I will not endlessly question whether I really deserve my title or pay.

Just for today…
I will be happy that I am at work, alive and well and not in a combat trench or in hospital awaiting surgery.

Just for today...
I will not have any expectations about how I should be treated.
I will not compare my pay or status with someone else.
I will just be glad that I am who I am.

Just for today…
I will not worry about “what is in it for me”.  I will think only about what I can do to help in every situation.

Just for today…
I will not dwell on how much I did or did not get done.  Instead I will look forward to the evening and be thankful for whatever I accomplished.

Wednesday, 23 February 2011

Paul



Paul,

It's been nearly 8 years since we last saw each other but not a day goes by when I don't think of you!!  We may be seperated by 11682 miles but you will always have a special place in my heart.  I always smile when I hear "our" song.  I hope you do too.

Love always..

Mandi xx



I believe..



I believe…

That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are but we are responsible for whom we become.

That just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean that they don’t love you with all that they have.

That no matter how good a friend is, they are going to hurt you every once in a while.

That true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.  The same goes for true love.

That you can keep going long after you thought you couldn’t.

That we are responsible for what we do no matter how we feel.

That you should always leave loved ones with loving words as it may be the last time you see them.

That money is a lousy way to keep score.

That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

That hero’s are the people who do what needs to be done when it needs to be done – regardless of the consequences.

That my best friend and I can do nothing and still have the best time.

That sometimes the people who you expect to kick you when you are down are the ones who will help you get back up.

That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

That you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret.  It could change your life forever.

That when you think you have no more to give a friend will cry out to you and you will find the strength to help.

That sometimes when I am angry, I have the right to be angry but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

That your life can be changed within a matter of minutes by people you didn’t even know.

That two people can look at exactly the same thing and see totally different things.


Tuesday, 22 February 2011

I am Thankful


For the teenager who plays his music to loud…
Because it means that he is at home and not ill in hospital.

For the taxes I pay…
Because it means I am employed.

For the mess that I have to clear up after a party…
Because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.

For the clothes that fit a little to snug…
Because it means I have enough food to eat.

For my shadow that watches me work…
Because it means that I am out in the sunshine.

For the lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning and gutters that need fixing…
Because it means I have a home.

For the complaining that I hear about the government…
Because it means we have free speech.

For the parking spot that I find at the far end of the car park…
Because it means that I am capable of walking and have been blessed with transportation.

For my huge electricity bill…
Because it means that I am warm.

For the lady behind me on the bus who sings off key…
Because it means that I can hear.

For the big pile of laundry and ironing…
Because it means that I have clothes to wear.

For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day…
Because it means that I am capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours…
Because it means that I am alive.


When you are thankful for something, no matter how small it is, you are initiating the law of attraction to get even more of what you want and deserve. 
What are you thankful for today?

Monday, 21 February 2011

Don't worry


Don’t worry about who doesn’t like you, who has more or who is doing what.  Instead cherish the relationships that you have with those who you love.

Think about what God has blessed you with and what you are doing each day to promote yourself mentally, physically and emotionally.

You have one shot at life and then it’s gone.

Friday, 18 February 2011

Mariana Mitchell


I posted yesterday that a young girl, Mariana Mitchell, had taken her own life.  I didn’t know that the death of someone you didn’t know could affect you but I now realize that it can.  The last couple of days have brought back some painful memories because a friend of mine also committed suicide by hanging himself.  It happened over a year ago now but it feels as thought it was just yesterday.
I have heard people say that taking your own life is selfish and that it is the coward’s way out.  I think if they knew what it was like to be in that situation – to have the weight of the world on your shoulders, to feel so alone, to be in so much pain that you can’t see any other way out – if they knew what it was like then they wouldn’t be so quick to judge.
I know what it is like as I have been there a few times myself when my depression was at it’s worst.  While I never actually attempted it I really did consider it.  I even went so far as to plan and get everything ready but when it came down to actually doing it I couldn’t.  Not because I was scared but because I couldn’t bear to put my children through the pain.  I also know what it is like to be on the receiving end of suicide you see.
Someone very special to me attempted suicide 5 times in a 10 year period.  Luckily he wasn’t successful.  I don’t think I will ever forget how scared I was after each attempt. How I sat by his hospital bed willing him to pull through.  How I always wondered if today would be the day that he would try it again – and succeed.  They aren’t happy memories but it’s not my place to judge so I don’t. 
Last night we took flowers to Mariana’s house.  She was an extremely pretty 13 year old girl who lived a road up from us and went to school with my children.  I don’t know the circumstances behind her decision but reading all the messages she has received on Facebook you can tell how loved and popular she was. 
I don’t think I can even begin to imagine what her parents are going through.  It’s not natural for a parent to bury their child.  It’s not the way things are supposed to happen.  In situations like this you feel so helpless.  You wish there was something you could do to make things better but you know that there isn’t.  All I can do is pray and have faith that God will help them through this terrible tragedy.
Rest in Peace Mariana.
xxx

Thursday, 17 February 2011

Rest in Peace



A young school girl tragically took her own life yesterday afternoon and a deep sense of loss and sadness has filled our small village.
While I don’t know the circumstances behind her decision I feel the pain and despair she must have gone through because I have been there myself at times.  
My thoughts and prayers are with her family - I pray God will be with them and guide them through this terrible time and, as we lay flowers tonight, I will say a little prayer for her and hope that she will finally be at peace. 

This tragedy (and Darryn’s illness) has really made me realize how important my family are to me.  I would be devastated if anything happened to them and I have made a conscious decision to try and show more patience, love, understanding and support towards my noo’s – they are after all the most important people in my life. 

Monday, 14 February 2011

Happy Single Awareness Day!


I made these for my Noo's.
 It’s Valentine’s Day! 

The shops they are full of cards, flowers, chocolates and champagne and I am suddenly reminded that I am single.  Being single doesn’t usually bother me but there are days, like today, when I wish I had someone to share my life with.  Don’t get me wrong, I am very independent.  I don’t want to be with someone just for the sake of it and I am certainly not the type of person who can’t function unless they are in a relationship or who will stay in a relationship no matter how rubbish it is because they are too afraid to be alone, they don’t want to admit that they have had another failed relationship or just so that there Facebook relationship status says, “in a relationship” That is not me – not by a long shot! 

I have been fortunate enough to have had a few relationships since my divorce.  Some were good and have resulted in lifelong friendships, others… well, let’s just say I got to kiss a couple of frogs along the way! 

It’s taken me a while but I now know exactly what I am looking for in a partner and what I want out of a relationship.  I just need to remember that I mustn’t compromise my morals, beliefs and values by settling for just anything / anyone – no matter how desperate I may feel. 

What I don’t want…

I don’t want to be with someone who thinks of me as their personal ATM - I am not here to pay for you every time we go anywhere or do anything! 
I don’t want to be with someone who thinks it’s ok to tell me to, “engage your brain or I will come and engage it for you.”
I don’t want to be with someone who thinks its ok for me to provide their food and drink all week – end every week – end for months on end without even offering to contribute towards the cost.    
I don’t want to be with someone who tells my children that they will throw a bucket of water on them if they don’t wake up early during the week – end.
I don’t want to be with someone who tells me to choose between them or my dog – my dog will win everytime!
I don’t want to be with someone who, after we have had an argument, tells me I need to go and apologize to his family for upsetting him.
I don’t want to be with someone who likes playing mind games.

So, I may celebrate this Valentine’s day as a single person but I have the love of Noo’s and I have some really amazing people in my life and that is worth more than all the cards, flowers, chocolates and champagne in the world!! 


For Savannah

For Darryn.

Monday, 10 January 2011

I will be...


I dedicate Avril Lavigne's song, I will be to my peeps - Darryn, Savannah, Carolla and Gareth.

The words say it all really.


There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the
pain, the tears
I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you
through the day
and make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me

And if I let you down, I'll turn it all around
'Cause I would never let you go
I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

Without you I can't breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I got, you're all I want, oh
'Cause without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see you're all I need?

And I will be, all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay